Grateful for running
My brain has been a mess the last 2 weeks. I keep replaying Jameson's last day over and over in my head. I keep thinking about what I could have done differently when the truth is she was 17 and there is nothing we could have done differently.
This morning, I woke up just wanting to stay in bed, and I was like if I do that, I am just going to feel worse. I am going to think about the pup the rest of the day and I am going to feel mad at myself for wasting my day and feeling depressed.
So 20 minutes before class, I booked it, got in the car, and got to class. I actually had a great class. My foot pain was minimal and I was able to push myself to run fast and run long.
I am grateful I have running again.
Running does not solve the pain I am feeling about my dog. But running disrupts the thinking patterns I get in about my dog.
Running helps me feel good in my body and in my head.
Running will not bring Jameson back, but it does make feel good in the present.
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Jaclyn Ricchio
Hey! It's Jaclyn. I'm here to help you stop feeling like a failure by getting consistent with mornings, meals, movement... anything. I hope you stick around and read a bit, will ya?
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